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Richard Watt

Category Archives: 50 Musical Memories

Written to mark the passing of a milestone in Richard’s life, these memories are intended as a memoir of sorts, starting at 50 and working back to the present day. It may make most sense to read them in that order, although any order works just as well. The preamble is here

The other fifty: 50 alternative musical memories

Posted on October 19, 2012 by Richard

There are 50 strong and meaningful memories here for me, web but they might just has easily have been replaced by a different 50.  Well, approved that’s not strictly true, of course; these 50 were selected after careful consideration and sifting, but there were another 50 which, when I thought about it, could have made the cut.  And probably another 50 which… Ah, let’s not go down that route.

So, with no preamble, in no particular order, and with no real context: another 50 memories:

Green Bullfrog – Bullfrog   On the road to Portmeirion

Johan Johannsson – How We Left Fordlandia  Back in PG at the end of 2009

Madonna – Ray Of Light  World Cup 98

Eros Ramazzotti – Quanto Amore Sei  A taxi? From Turin?

Mahler – Symphony no. 7   Ilian Volkov, apparently

Haircut 100 – Favourite Shirt  The DHT lecture halls

UFO – Love To Love  Edinburgh Playhouse, all misty green and blue

Gabriel Yared – C’est le vent, Betty  Cardiff

Oasis – Half The World Away  The Royle Family

Billy Connolly – The Welly Boot Song  Walking to the Spar at lunchtime

Renaissance – The Northern Lights  Oh, that bus…

Buggles – Video Killed The Radio Star  Great Western Road, Glasgow

Evelyn Glennie – Veni, Veni, Emmanuel  Mayfest

Thin Lizzy – Jailbreak  Hazlehead Academy tennis courts

Specials – Too Much Too Young   walking home from the No. 4 bus

Human League – Being Boiled  Hamlet? In one act?

Radiohead – Paranoid Android  Penzance

Verdi – Requiem  Coventry airport in an apocalyptic thunderstorm

Kate and Anna McGarrigle – Matapedia Driving through Hemel

U2 – Who’s Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses   wisdom teeth

Black – Wonderful Life  The back roads around Turriff

Tanita Tikaram – Good Tradition  strangely, Edinburgh.

kd lang – Jericho   in the new kitchen

Shawn Colvin – Rugged Road  Meadowhall, Sheffield

Harry Connick, jr – Let’s Call The Whole Thing Off  Ely

Dandy Warhols – Get Off   a new bypass?

Nitin Sawnhey – Prophecy  The Albert Hall and the last tube

Prodigy – Firestarter  some trade show in Birmingham

Ocean Colour Scene – The Day We Caught The Train turn right at the old church…

Gerry Rafferty – North and South  Not sure I want to work for Guinness

Sinead O’Connor – Don’t Cry For Me, Argentina  Rickmansworth High Street

Peter Gabriel – So  Brighton

Metallica – Enter Sandman  New Westminster

Trust – Mesrine (Le Mitard)  Cowan House

AC/DC – Back in Black  UDI, that first summer

Alan Parsons Project – Old and Wise  London Road

Rachmaninov, Piano concerto No.2   Centre Parcs

Bill Nelson’s Red Noise – Art/Empire/Industry  The school gym

Blackfoot – Good Morning  I’m on the record, but I have a migraine

California Guitar Trio – Bohemian Rhapsody  Driving along the Lougheed Highway

Paul Anka – Smells Like Teen Spirit  The last Christmas party

Randy Newman – The Great Nations of Europe  Rugby

Rick Wakeman – Arthur  May 1979

Spacehog – In The Meantime  pub quiz in the CHP

Supertramp – The Logical Song  first night in halls

Toyah – Neon Womb  backstage at 31 King Street

World Party – Is It Like Today? Junction 6 of the M40

Roger Waters – The Tide Is Turning  Culloden

Manchester Orchestra – Simple Math  life in the Great White North

Laurie Anderson – O Superman  GI Records, Cockburn Street.

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50MM: 1: Symphony No.2, “Resurrection”, Mahler

Posted on October 16, 2012 by Richard

What I said back then:

I have, I feel, shown great forbearance through all of this. I have wanted to write this one since I started, but I knew it ought to be left until last. It is two of my most powerful musical memories – in fact, it’s probably my two most powerful memories of all. Now, I know it’s possible to get overly pretentious about music such as this ( see here for details [link now defunct]), so I’ll try to remain calm but convincing. And let’s get the other bit out of the way, too – I love much of the rest of Mahler’s work, too – but this isn’t about the power and majesty of the 8th, or the strange resonances of the 7th, or – but I said I wouldn’t do this…

One of the conditions for Zoë accompanying me to those early Proms was that there had to be one with singing in it. Lots of big, choral singing. So I searched the Proms list for something – no ‘Carmina Burana’ that year – and settled on a Mahler symphony, because if there’s one thing we all know about Mahler, it’s the singing. And it was Abbado and the Berlin Phil, so it would be impressively played, too. Now, at this point in my life I knew only the bit of Mahler that everyone knows – the ‘Death in Venice’ bit from the 5th. (and, I discovered later, the Castrol GTX music, but I didn’t know that at the time). So I did worry a little that a 90 minute symphony by someone with a reputation for being loud and intense might be a bit much for either of us. But there was going to be singing. We were sitting in the gallery, which can be a little disconcerting; you feel a long way up, and falling out on to the heads of the promenaders seems a real possibility. The hall was packed, and there was a definite edge to the atmosphere wahich I hadn’t noticed at previous Proms. The hush before it began seemed somehow deeper, and there was an audible intake of breath as the baton was raised. The instant I heard the opening phrases – the big first chord, the menacing pulses of the low strings, barely audible, building to that first colossal explosion of melody – I knew this was going to be alright – more than alright. I sat there, barely moving for the first four movements, drinking in this music; it seemed inconcievable that I could have lived this long without it. My only concern was that there seemed to be very little singing as yet, and I wondered how Zoë was coping. I daren’t look round, because if she was bored, or worse, asleep, it would have destroyed the magic. And then, as the fifth movement surged and flowed on, it happened. If you don’t know this work, as I didn’t at the time, you can have no concept of the impression the entrance of the choir makes. Everything gradually dies away; the last post is sounded, offstage, and the tumult of the orchestra is finally silenced. Then, seemingly from everywhere and nowhere at once, this faint breath can be heard. Only after several moments does it become apparent that this is the whole, massed, choir – the control is magnificent, rising slowly but steadily in volume, until the hall is filled with ‘Aufersteh’n!’ Then the whole orchestra and the soloists join in, and it is as if the whole world is singing to you. The ovation at the end was ecstatic, although I was still too caught up in this sound world to even take it in properly. We left the hall, and had walked most of the way back to the car before I felt able to speak. I tentatively asked Zoë what she thought, fearing that I might have subjected her to an hour and a half of torture:

“Wasn’t that magnificent?”

I know that few people will have the opportunity to be introduced to this awe inspiring music in that fashion, but I really do recommend it. Of course, I had to own a copy, and of course, I had to listen to it as often as possible until I felt I knew it – I can hum, or whistle, great chunks of it now, much to people’s bemusement. And I knew I had to see it performed again. The opportunity presented itself in 1999 – Sir Simon Rattle, and the Vienna Phil – this is going to be even better, I thought, as I planned to spend the whole day queuing if necessary. That summer proved to be a traumatic one, as Zoë’s mum died suddenly whilst visiting us, and I don’t think I had even begun to recover from the shock by the time I took my day off work to sit on the pavement in Kensington Gore. I did have high expectations of the evening, but I wasn’t really prepared for the emotional power of it all. The whole symphony is predicated upon the idea of resurrection; of life going on, even renewing in the face of tragedy, and that evening, the whole performance seemed to be directed only at me. There were several moments where the hairs on the back of my neck really did stand up, and several more when I felt close to tears. Which, of course were finally produced by that choral entrance; joyful, defiant and overpowering.

I have never experienced anything like it, and I don’t suppose I ever will again. There really was only ever going to be one final entry in this list.

What I think now:

Clarification: the “see here for details” link was to a wildly over the top website of people’s mystical reactions to Mahler’s music.  It was a wonder of its time, but nowhere to be found these days.

Otherwise, what I think now is that this was always going to be the final entry, even ten years later.  Nothing I have heard has ever come close to inspiring in me what Mahler does, and I doubt anything ever will.  And I’m just fine with that; Stephen Fry would have me believe that the operas of Richard Wagner are even better, but I have reservations about Wagner which are purely personal; I try to set aside the person from his music, but it’s hard, and I find that the opera form for me can sometimes get in the way of the music – opera and symphony are different things, but I’ll always prefer the symphonic form.

I hope that in ten years time, something else will have even more effect on me than this wondrous symphony, because I don’t like the idea that nothing better could ever be achieved.  But if it’s not achieved in my lifetime, I’ll lose no sleep over it.

My aim hasn’t been to encourage anyone to like the things I’ve presented here; simply to write a memoir of sorts using music as a structure.  I can’t insist that you go out and listen to Mahler, far less enjoy or even like his music.  But, trust me – if you can give yourself over to the Second Symphony, you’ll hear things you’ve never heard before, and that can’t be a bad thing.

Since then:

I have another recording of it, by Gergiev and the LSO, which I bought at the Royal Festival Hall music store on my way home after my mother’s funeral.  It’s not my favourite recording (nothing I’ve heard yet beats Rattle and the CBSO), but it’s a third strong memory of this symphony.  Yet it doesn’t change the way I feel about it; I have memories of the music, but the music doesn’t necessarily conjure up those memories – when I listen to it, it is usually with a clean slate; ready each time to find something new.

And that, in the end, is what this journey has been about.  I can take comfort in my memories, and enjoy the nostalgia as much as anyone, but every day, I’m hoping to hear something else, something new; ready to start the journey to the next ten years’ memories.

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50MM: 2: Rush

Posted on October 15, 2012 by Richard

What I said back then:

So there had to be some fallout from all that noisy, hairy stuff that I immersed myself in when I first went to Edinburgh, and it turned out to be this lot. Something about them appealed to me straight away. Well, lets be honest, intelligent lyrics, clever musicianship, staggeringly good drumming and proper use of things like science fiction were always going to ring a few bells with me. I was intrigued by name checks for the likes of Ayn Rand – interestingly, using her name seemed to provoke critics into knee-jerk accusations of extreme right wing activities something which the merest effort of research would have debunked – and enthralled by a band which, having hit on a winning formula, would tend to do something entirely different next time around. There was a time when I owned all their records, even the frankly hatstand collaboration with Max Webster. And eventually my enthusiasm faded to normal levels, and then to almost nothing. But I own some of their music on CD, and occasionally look in in their websites to see what’s going on; and if some of their music no longer has the power to thrill like it did, some of it still speaks to me.

So when I remember Rush I remember Edinburgh, and up to a point vice versa; certain songs bring back very specific memories. The thing I remember most vividly, however, is my very first arena concert. Scotland had precisely no large scale indoor venues in the early eighties, so someone had the brilliant idea of using the Ingliston Showground Exhibition Hall. Without being unkind, it was a vast cowshed with a temporary stage at one end. The view was strictly limited, and the acoustics appalling. But it was still one of the best concerts I’d ever seen – partly due to the anticipation, and partly due to the genuine quality of these three guys. There’s not much from that time that I remember with great affection, and hardly anything I’d actually spend money on now, but I make an exception for Rush.

What I think now:

I think there may be hope for me, if I can do this next bit without being so mealy-mouthed.  I fell under the spell of Rush when I was still at school, and, in spite of a period of not buying new releases in the 1990s they never went away.  What was certain was that Rush were not ‘cool’.  Never have been, and probably in some parts, never will be.  That, to my shame, affected how I wrote about them in 2002.

Well, we’re all bigger and more intelligent than we were then; Rush have been nominated to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, and I live in Canada, a country where they revere their musicians.  Here’s what I should have written:

Mark Stephen had a copy of ‘Permanent Waves’ in the common room one day.  Everyone listened, nodding thoughtfully along to ‘Spirit of Radio’, pretending not to notice the looks we were getting from the punk girls, and most of us moved on.  I went out and bought Rush albums.  Not all of them, and – strangely – not the one I’d been listening to, but enough of them to know that I loved this band.

I studied them because there were intriguing lyrics, and because I wanted to be able to play those melodies; I listened to them in Edinburgh because they at once tied me to home, where I had first heard them, and promised a wider world to explore; I liked them partly because no-one else I knew did – I knew other students who had much cooler musical tastes than me, but I didn’t really care.

And then, as my tastes changed, everything but Rush dropped away.  I hung on to them because they were ‘my’ band; part of my life in a way nothing else ever was, and nothing would be until I discovered… no, let’s not get ahead of the story now.

There are some specific Rush memories: buying ‘Moving Pictures’ twice; reading the sleeve of ‘Exit Stage Left’ on the bus in the rain; being overpowered by the stage show in spite of the surroundings; hearing ‘Time Stand Still’ in a Forbuoys in Perth; seeing crowds of denim-clad herberts on their way to see them at the SECC and feeling more than just a pang of regret; hurtling through Glencoe, listening to ‘The Pass’…

Actually, there are lots of Rush memories.

I came back to them in 1999.  I was in the Virgin Megastore in Brent Cross; I suspect I had a voucher to spend or something, and on impulse I bought ‘Different Stages’; it plugged me right back in as though I’d never been away.  The live performances seemed looser, more relaxed and inviting than before, and I could feel the joy in them.

And, like most people, I guess, at that point, given what had happened, I imagined that the story was over.

Since then:

The story wasn’t over.

Has there ever been a more defiant comeback than the opening bars of ‘One Little Victory’?  I saw this on the ‘Rush in Rio’ DVD, and from that moment, I was back in the world of Rush, the rock band which means more to me than all the others put together.

I fear I haven’t explained why, and I’m not sure I can – I think you’d have to be me to properly get it.  But one more story, perhaps:

My children (and Zoe, to a degree), having been exposed to Rush for most of their lives, are also fans (nothing to do with me, honest.  Well, not much).  Cameron is a budding drummer; he can be heard in the basement some evenings, trying to play along with ‘Tom Sawyer’; Conor is a guitarist, his version of the opening of ‘Limelight’ is my favourite of all I’ve heard. Last year, Rush played in Vancouver;  how could we not go?

The whole thing was a fabulous experience ; fully 28 years after I’d last seen them in concert, they were – well, spectacular doesn’t begin to cover it.  But the songs they played and the fun we had isn’t my favourite memory.  Cameron recording the entire drum solo on his phone isn’t my favourite memory.  Conor grinning from ear to ear at the interval, having sorted out the ‘too loud’ problem and the ‘can’t see’ problem isn’t my favourite memory.  Even the on-stage fight between the hockey mascots isn’t my favourite memory.

What I’ll always remember about that weekend is the following day.  The boys and I, resplendent in our new Rush t-shirts, walking the streets of downtown Vancouver, and being stopped every few yards, it seemed, by people asking us how the show was, sharing in having been there, or congratulating us for simply being Rush fans.  It was Canada Day, and I can honestly say that there was a moment when I first felt properly Canadian.  Never mind the ongoing saga of our Citizenship ceremony; this was the point we became Canadian:

A couple of long-haired guys walking towards us; if I had to describe them, I’d say they were ‘dudes’.  They greet us thus:

“Woah, Dad – way to go; bringing the boys up right!”

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50MM: 3: ‘Takk…’, Sigur Ros

Posted on October 14, 2012 by Richard

What I said back then:

It didn’t exist…

What I think now:

Back to that late summer of 2009.  I have no idea how this album insinuated itself into my consciousness; it was just suddenly there.  It is possibly the last physical CD I ever bought, presumably because the old car didn’t have a simple way for me to connect my mp3 player of choice, and I’d really like to be able to hear this in the car.  I also have a suspicion that I didn’t buy it here in Prince George – most likely during one of the trips back to Scotland that year.  For a memory, this one’s looking a little vague…

But here’s what I do remember.  I went to Scotland three times that summer; once with the family, as already noted.  I remember many things about that visit, but they’re transient things; impressions – the cottage we stayed in, the arguments with the car hire company, the Falkirk Wheel – but it’s not etched into my memory like the others.

The second trip was my insurance policy.  Thanks to the Canadian weather, we had some unused BA flight tickets.  We decided that I should use them to go and say goodbye properly; I knew that if I was back for a third time, I’d run the risk of being too late, and however much you don’t want to face the reality of what’s happening, you definitely don’t want to add regret to the emotions.

I listened to ‘Takk..’ a lot on that trip – on the mp3 player, late at night, when a combination of jetlag and stress meant I wasn’t sleeping; on both flights; in the rental car, where I had somehow rigged up a system to let me listen to the music I had brought, but which could only store a handful of tracks, for some reason –I probably wasn’t quite giving the situation my full attention, but I do remember having to copy things onto a USB stick, and that wasn’t quite the success it might have been…

So here are these glorious, sweeping songs of – well, who knows what: I certainly don’t have enough Icelandic to be able to make sense of them – and a period of my life where I am emotionally heightened; it’s a wonder I can still listen to any of it.

Yet, that’s the point, really – this music is strong enough to overcome negative connotations, and when I listen to it now, it makes me happy, and thoughtful, and sad, all at once.

Since then:

Like I say, I listen to it from time to time, and when I do, I remember.

I remember growing up, long before I ever heard it, but it reminds me of childhood, and of my safe, loving upbringing; it reminds me to be grateful for all I have and have had.

I remember texting my mother from the Skytrain, on my way back to see her that August – telling her how beautiful Vancouver looked, and that I’d be at her bedside this time tomorrow.

I remember walking the streets of my childhood in the rain, thinking about anything and everything, trying to digest what was happening.

I remember lying awake in the middle of the night, wishing for the limbo to be over, and feeling guilty about that.

I remember doing the practical things the day after she died; writing an obituary, talking to the minister, and hearing myself say “I think someone should give a eulogy, and I think it should be me”.

I remember standing in the church, feeling glad that I was here, and hoping that everyone could hear me; my actor’s training having deserted me as I read those words.

I remember sharp, crisp memories, inconsequential things which meant a lot to me at the time.

And, most of all, I remember my mum.

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50MM: 4: ‘Somebody That I Used To Know’, Walk Off The Earth

Posted on October 13, 2012 by Richard

What I said back then:

You know the drill by now.

What I think now:

2012 will, I think, in retrospect, feel like a momentous year.  In many small and subtle ways, things changed this year.  Not just the process of surviving another year which ends in a 2, always a risky thing for me, but because the family unit is shifting.  These bright and brilliant boys who entered our lives not so long ago are beginning the process of moving out of our orbits and finding their own paths.  When your younger child goes off to secondary school, you have to face facts: they’re really not kids any more.

Cameron will remember this year as the year he started on the path of serious exams and momentous choices; we all get there eventually, and I think for most parents it must feel like it’s come too soon – my baby can’t be ready to be sitting exams where the result might stay with him for the rest of his life.

Yet here we are; Cameron is doing trigonometry problems and solving them quicker than I can, because it’s fresher in his mind than in mine.  I’m reaching that point where – in some subjects, anyway – I’m no longer ahead of him; I’m learning along with him, and hoping that age imparts some clearer understanding of the wider picture so I can help to put things in context.

But Cameron will also remember 2012 as the year when things changed in other ways: no longer the sole focus of sporting activities, as we’ll see – he has had to learn to be a spectator as well as a participant this year, but what he’ll remember is a week at the lake, passing his boating license, fishing under the stars, learning to waterski, eating what’s put in front of him because there’s no alternative, and doing all of that while the rest of his family get on with life hundreds of miles away.  He’s an independent spirit anyway; this summer just loosened the bonds a little more…

And Conor will remember 2012 for just as many things, but I think primarily for being a participant in the BC Summer Games.  That independence, which perhaps has not come quite as easily to him, blossomed in the environment of the Games; corralled away from parents, being part of the group with just his team-mates and coaches – overnight on the bus, nights in dorm rooms, and games where no parental input was obvious – just him, his team-mates and his coaches against the world.

Well, the rest of the Province, anyway.

The Games felt momentous to me.  Our youngest, off on his own, doing his own thing and making his mark on the world, however small.  The sense of pride was enormous; pride in him, doing these things, being part of a massive event like that, but a tiny bit, I think, of pride in ourselves as parents – so far, we’ve done an OK job.

So, you’ll forgive me if I was a little emotional watching the teams file in for the opening ceremony.  You’ll forgive me if I was affected by the simple, joyous optimism of the theme song, and – I hope – you’ll forgive me for remembering one moment which just felt magical, right at the end.

During the summer, we had all become aware of the original version of ‘Somebody That I Used to Know’; we liked it, but the boys and I in particular were enthralled by the Walk Off The Earth version – 5 musicians, one guitar, and such evident fun.  Music can be hard to learn, but the rewards are enormous.  We loved the video, and resolved – well, I did – to find out a little more; they are, after all, a Canadian band.

But there’s never time for such fripperies – we have lives to lead, soccer tournaments to play, and Summer Games to attend.  Once the games were over, and we had all calmed down a little from the intensity of it all, there was just the closing ceremony to go.  Like the Olympic ceremony, it is altogether less formal; the teams come in mingled together, many of the participants wearing their medals with pride; all of them buzzing with the energy only being part of something so big can impart.

There were speeches, as you’d expect, and there was music – the theme song again, with now much swooning from teenage boys less anxious about the immediate future. To our delight and surprise, Walk Off The Earth are invited up on to the stage.  They play ‘Summer Vibe’ and it instantly becomes our summer 2012 song, athletes and parents singing along, grinning madly.  They troop off again, to my mild disappointment – presumably it’s a little hard to recreate the whole ‘5 players round one guitar’ thing live, and I’m guessing it’s not been on the timetable anyway.

More speeches, and just before the flame is extinguished: ‘Well, you didn’t think we’d let them go without playing it, did you?’

Music is magical.  I could have done this with books or movies, or football matches, but it wouldn’t have been the same.  I’ll never forget how that felt, watching something unexpected and delightful, knowing that Conor is watching it from somewhere else in the arena, and making his own musical memory, and sharing the experience with him without even exactly knowing where he is.

Get used to it, Dad – this is how it’s going to be.

Since then:

There hasn’t been a ‘since then’ yet – come back in another ten years; we’ll see.

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50MM: 5: BBC Proms, July 27th, 2003

Posted on October 12, 2012 by Richard

What I said back then:

Look at the date.  It’s in the future.  Back then, that is.

What I think now:

I wanted to try to contextualise the Proms a little more, to explain a little how much they meant to me while I was able to attend, and what exactly it is that changes my musical understanding simply by being in a crowd of like-minded individuals, listening to music while ignoring my aching calves.

July 27th, 2003.  It’s a Sunday, so I might have shown up at almost any point in the afternoon, but given that it’s not likely to be sold out, I’m guessing I got to the queue around 5.30.  I almost certainly drove in, since parking is free around the Albert Hall on Sunday evenings (in fact, I think it’s free all day Sunday at this point.  I doubt that it still is.)  The queue is a significant part of the enjoyment of the evening; you might be in line with friends; you might meet someone who knows the composer or conductor; you might meet family members coming to cheer on a performer; you might equally well bring a book and a Marks and Spencer sandwich and just sit there, on the steps or along Prince Consort Road, and watch the world go by.  I have had all of those experiences, and cannot elevate one above the others – whatever happens works for that particular evening.

You might even, as I once was, be interviewed for the radio about that evening’s conductor.  My contribution was not used, I know, because I didn’t actually know who that evening’s conductor was. (Some evenings you go to see someone specific; some you go to see a particular work; some you go because you are able to go)

That evening was themed – not a particularly common experience for the Proms, although, of course, programmes are designed so that they flow and make sense together, but an actual theme is less common.  The theme is mourning, and the reason I was so keen to see it was the conductor – John Adams, one of the foremost living composers, conducting three works I am vaguely familiar with and ending the evening with the UK premiere of his work written in response to the events of 9/11.

The first piece is one of those Haydn symphonies I was so exercised about back there.  I’d never heard it before, and I remember enjoying it perfectly well.  It is called the ‘Trauersinfonie’, or ‘Mourning Symphony’, setting the tone for the evening without being gloomy or ponderous.  It’s perfectly fine, and enjoyable, but it is instantly sidelined in my memory by what comes next.

Now, I love a Piano Concerto.  I’d say that, after the long-form symphony, they are my favourite expression of the classical style.  However, I had never heard Bartok No.3, written as he was dying (and indeed not quite finished by him), so I wasn’t sure what to expect.  I was, as they say, blown away by it.  It instantly became one of my favourite pieces of music, thanks to a scintillating interpretation by both conductor and soloist.  That’s why I love the Proms so much – new stuff which just becomes part of you.

After the interval, we are treated to some Copland – Quiet City, not a piece I knew well, and intended as a counterpoint to the finale.  It worked well, but perhaps was just a little too optimistic given what came next.

The final piece is what we came for – Adams conducting his own ‘On the Transmigration of Souls’.  It’s startling, partly electronic, partly on tape, inspired by, and partly about the passengers on those doomed aircraft, but also in a way about all of us and how we might face the end of our lives.  I found it profoundly moving in places, and strangely optimistic; not a reaction I had expected.  It’s hard to process new music sometimes, not because it’s impenetrable or innately ‘difficult’, but because, never having heard it before, you’re trying to comprehend what you’re hearing as you listen for themes and motifs.  Not a problem I ever had with a Saxon song, I grant you.

We file into the night, uplifted as always by live music, and thoughtful – at least I am.  Unusually, I have no music on in the car on the way home.  Silence seems the appropriate response to what I’ve just seen, although I’ll be buying a copy of that Bartok in the morning…

Since then:

Well, I certainly bought some Bartok.  Indeed, it’s one of the few pieces I have more than one interpretation of; if you’re intrigued by it, try to find Marta Argerich’s version – it’s seriously impressive.  I didn’t buy copies of any of the other pieces from that night, but that’s mainly because the Adams wasn’t available.  It has since been released, and I ought to have a copy of it to go alongside my copy of ‘Short Ride in a Fast Machine’, which has a whole other Proms story of its own, but since its mainly about how I seemed destined never to hear it, that is perhaps for another time.

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50MM: The top 5

Posted on October 12, 2012 by Richard

The Top 5:

A little preamble, adiposity if I may.  The final five are somewhat out of sequence, no rx and I like to think there’s a reason for that.  I think these next five memories coalesce into ‘well, here I am now.’  Probably only the final one is in any kind of order – I can’t imagine anything surpassing it as a memory, or as two memories, and it’s up there because how could anything come after it – it would be wrong to have it as the midpoint of this list, and to end with something from 2012 which might not last.

The other four allow me in one way or another to ponder how I got here, and what these memories might actually mean.  As you’ll see, I could easily have chosen an entirely different 50, and been perfectly happy that they represent who I was and how I got here.  Having said that, of course, there is no way any of these next five could have been missed off the list, so make of that what you will…

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50MM: 6: Porcupine Tree

Posted on October 11, 2012 by Richard

What I said back then:

Nothing.  I’d never even heard of them back then.

What I think now:

Just when I thought I’d wriggled free of ‘popular’ or ‘rock’ or even ‘Progressive’ music…

There now follows the first of two memories which deal with 2009 and the fact that my mother was dying while I was living 5000 miles away.  This had not been in the plan when we moved, although it is an inevitable part of what you consider before you undertake a move like that.  For all that we knew that such things were possible, having already lost Zoe’s mum, we felt that there would be a good few years left before we would have to face such things.  However, fate deals the cards it deals, and I found myself flying back and forth across the North Atlantic several times that year.

On the first trip, the entire family went, and while we were keeping things as light as possible, even the boys knew deep down that they were saying goodbye to Grandma.  I wasn’t in denial, but I was open to distractions, and music turned out to be one of them.  Before boarding the return flight, I picked up a copy of a magazine devoted to Prog Rock.

I’m not prone to public self-analysis, but it’s pretty clear what was going on there – I was revisiting my youth; the time before any of my immediate family showed any signs of encroaching mortality.  I read happily articles on ELP and Rush, and several others I had mostly ignored at the time, and I felt a certain nostalgic pull.

There was also a list of the 100 best Prog albums, or at least, that’s how I remember it.  I’d have struggled to name 100, of course, but I was intrigued by the top 10, which featured pretty much the albums you’d expect, and one I’d never even heard of; Porcupine Tree’s In Absentia.

Since I was, to a greater or lesser degree, familiar with the others, I resolved to make myself familiar with that one.  I downloaded it, and played it incessantly al that summer.  If you’d asked me what the music reminded me of, out of context, Yes, Genesis, Pink Floyd and so on wouldn’t have really registered – it’s modern rock music, of the type that the likes of Muse seem to be able to make effortlessly popular.

Only, to these ears, somewhat better – less bombastic and more, well – personal.

And I think it’s the personal which resonated.  These aren’t songs which particularly related to my situation that summer, but they were songs which did genuinely seem to matter.  I loved the sweep of them, the power of ‘Blackest Eyes’; the industrial edge of ‘The Creator has a Mastertape’; the melancholy of ‘Heart Attack in a Lay-by’, and most of all, the honest appraisal of ‘The Sound of Muzak’ – a subject dear to my heart.

There’s another memory, as we’ll see shortly which is the sound of the autumn of 2009, which reminds me of the sadness and the turmoil, but this one reminds me of that uncertain summer, and how reconnecting with the music of my youth somehow kept me grounded enough to do what had to be done.

Since then:

More Porcupine Tree music naturally came my way.  They are something of a side project these days, it seems, but that suits me, because I need time to catch up with things like ‘ Lazarus’ or ‘Arriving Somewhere but not Here’, or ‘Pure Narcotic’

Enough lists.  Go try some, as they say round here.

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50MM: 7: Turangalila-symphonie, Messiaen

Posted on October 10, 2012 by Richard

What I said back then:

See above.

What I think now:

I’m really not sure where to start with this, physician because my memory of this is playing it very loud to my children and some of their friends as we went to an open day at the London Gliding Club.

It’s not my only memory, information pills of course, ambulance but it’s a startlingly clear one – trying to surprise or intrigue a bunch of 7-year-olds with some of the weirdest noises they’ll ever have heard in the name of music.  What’s not clear to me is when I first heard it, or what prompted me to buy it, because for all that it has something of a reputation – and perhaps not the reputation you might imagine, either – I was very busy at that time with many other things, and I can’t imagine that ‘get to know Messiaen’ was high on my list of things to do back then.

So, all I know for sure is that I own a copy of it, and I would play it during long car journeys, and slowly the seemingly impenetrable music would open itself up to me, and I came to love it.

If you know anything at all about Turangalila, it will be that it features the early electronic instrument, the Ondes Martenot.  I was first aware of the Ondes through the work of Gerard Hoffnung, q.v. and to be honest, I desperately wanted to see one in the flesh, to see if it lived up to Hoffnung’s demented vision.

And, you know, it very nearly does.  It is a brilliant thing, and a wonder to see played, even if the piano does tend to overpower it in places.  The Prom which featured it is one of my favourites, mainly because it truly is a bonkers instrument playing bonkers music, but it all makes sense.  Highly recommended, should you ever get the chance.

Since then:

There was another Proms performance this year.  It’s harder for me to see them these days, of course, but even more than some of my cast-iron favourites, I wanted to see this done again.  It doesn’t ever disappoint.

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50MM: 8: van den Budenmayer

Posted on October 9, 2012 by Richard

What I said back then:

Nothing.  We’re in uncharted waters now…

What I think now:

So, cure I feel like I’m in the home straight now, cure and I think I should celebrate by singing the praises of someone who doesn’t exist.

Van den Budenmayer doesn’t even have a first name, more about as far as I’m aware, and yet he’s one of my favourite composers.  How, I hear you ask, can this be?

The story goes back to the early 1990s, as far as I can remember – I know that Channel 4 showed the Polish TV series, Dekalog, which I was hooked on in much the same way I would later become immersed in Heimat. I only discovered recently, however, that some of the music in Dekalog was credited to van den Budenmayer, so he had his hooks in me before I was even aware of his existence, which seems appropriate.

I resolved to find out more about Krzysztof Kieslowski, the director of Dekalog, and discovered The Double Life of Veronique, which remains at or near the top of the entirely imaginary list of top ten films which I certainly don’t keep a record of.

Veronique centres, in its first half, around Weronika, an aspiring soprano with a heart condition.  She is to sing a piece by the 18th century composer, van den Budenmayer, but is unable to finish it for reasons which would involve giving away the plot of the film.  I remember watching the film, entranced by the director’s vision and the subtle allegories being played out, but being absolutely blown away by the music.  It seemed impossible that such powerful and compelling music should be unknown, but I had certainly never heard of van den Budenmayer, and I tried to find out more.

I found the soundtrack CD, which gives the game away.  The music of van den Buenmayer was, in fact, written by Zbigniew Preisner, and it is he who should have credit for this entry.

But, of course, it’s not as simple as that.  Preisner’s music throughout the film is startling and wonderful, but it is the van den Budenmayer piece which soars above the ordinary and takes the breath away, just as his funeral music is perfect in Three Colurs: Blue among the magnificent Preisner score (including another piece which is being written by characters in the film, and I really don’t want to follow that particular thread, because it’s not as straightforward as that, because – oh, go and watch the film.  You’ll thank me later.)

Since then:

I own a lot of Preisner music, including his luminous Requiem for my Friend, which became Kieslowski’s eulogy.  For all that I love Preisner’s work in the modern idiom, there is something about the pastiche 18th century van den Budenmayer music which sets it apart, even if that does seem a little too postmodern for some tastes.

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